Hope rises from the ashes

I will get my new prescription eyeglasses today.  It will take a couple of days till they are made.  Hoping for the best and a brighter future.  There's always tomorrow, and I'm still alive to see it through.

4 months - Moment of Regret

I have never felt regret during the LASEK process like today.  During the 5-week period where the bandage contact lens were in my eyes during the first month after the surgery, I suffered tissue loss on the stromal section of the cornea.  This means my right eye may never see clear again.  The doctor believes corneal tissue may grow and fill that gap up.  He only knew that after taking a full corneal scan of my eye, the first since I did the surgery 4 months ago.

Haze is reducing, and the doctor believes I will see a significant change around December (2 months from now).  If my left eye can recover completely, perhaps I will not feel as much regret as I do now.  Was this all a mistake?  It doesn't matter thinking negative thoughts now.  What's happened has happened.  A stupid mistake like keeping bandage contact lenses in for 5 weeks having such a huge impact on my life made me realize how fragile we human beings are.  No use of regret.  Time to live life, accept what has happened and move on.  God, I will keep living on as usual, but I ask and pray to you to please help my eyes recover.  God, please help my vision recover...

For the time being, they prescribed me with strong lenses which I have to get and start wearing eyeglasses to avoid the constant headaches I've been suffering from due to my eyestrain when trying to constantly focus on anything.  The prescription:

Eight eye: +6.00 -2.00x 90

Left eye: +2.25

The machine reading was different, but here it is:

Day 115 Post-Op (Oct 13)

It’s been a while since I last posted something. I am now less obsessive about my eyes, learning to deal with the temporary disability of ghosting and going on with my life. I still use the artificial tears around 4 times a day, but I don’t like using them anymore. For some reason whenever I place the drops on my eyes, the next 3+ hours my eyes feel dryer than when I don’t use them. However, overall, I don’t have any issues with dry eyes.


I have a follow up appointment in 9 days. It feels like it will be a very standard visit where I expect internal ocular pressure to be normal, eyes healing well and corneal haze reduction (although at a very minimal rate).

My vision has been improving now, but again, very slowly and not as obvious. When I attempt to focus on something by opening my eyes wide and tensing my eye muscles (just lightly to avoid any strain) things clear up as ghosting is reduced. Whenever I want to read small text (like the nutrition on a small food packet, or sometimes messages on my phone) I have to do one of the following:

1. Use the iPhone camera to zoom in so I can read it clearly (and enlarged)

2. Create a small pinhole using my fingers, and looking through that pinhole (all ghosting disappears when I do that)

3. Squinting my eyes (not straining the muscles, but closing the eye lids and leaving a small thin open space between the eye lids which reduce or almost eliminate ghosting. This is similar to #2 above but eithout looking strange and people giving me the look asking themselves “WTH is that guy doing!?”

All is well. Healing is on schedule and as always, patience is key. It’s been over 100 days now (115 to be exact) and my eyes are not even half way through the journey of healing completely. For anyone out there reading my blog, my advice to you is be patient, don’t obsess with your eyes and get on with your life. The less you obsess the faster you’ll feel the results and if the end destination is a good thing (even if it takes 1+ years), why rush? It’s not like you’re missing out on anything ;)